Yea....I know.

I know.  I know that I should never speak to him again.  Everytime we stop talking I have two fears.  The first is that he will never speak to me again.  The second is that he will speak to me again.  He doesn't love me.  Does not.  He is using me.  He will not even call me baby or tell me he loves me or that he misses me.  He tells me things like...well things I can't say without sounding like I am from the planet of the slut people.  Sex.  Thats what he wants.  I want him.  Oh, and did I mention that my husband still doesn't know if he wants me.  Who can blame him.  I think he is ready to move on without me.